The date I got set up on actually went pretty wonderfully. I had no expectations because I barely knew the guy and I knew Hailey was just trying to cheer me up and get my mind off of whatnot, but it went way better than I thought. He had such a nice car, my God. He drove out to pick me up, bought me dinner, and paid for the movie tickets. Plus he is super smart and sweet. I guess chivalry isn’t dead. Anyways, it was awesome.

Oh and IM GRADUATING TOMORROW :D that kicks off a weekend of grad parties, which is great. After I’m done with all the grad parties I’ll be going to beach week and having more fun con mis chicas! I won’t have time to mope. It should be pretty great. Many memories to be made.

I refuse to mope.

This girl 👍 thank goodness for a years worth of college credits I already have taken care of (and with a good GPA to start off with). Finding that out made my day. Going into college with enough credits to technically be a sophomore is awesome.

Please. Don’t waste your time on me. You’ll only get hurt. I’ll only cause heartache. I’m just annoying. Please, stay away from me. I don’t want a relationship. I don’t want anything. Please.

We just got to hang out. It was so nice. I need to have more girls days like that. Tried to hang out with Jake and George yesterday. Plans didn’t go through, that was unfortunate, but I had fun with Hailey in lieu of the situation! I also think I’m being ignored, which really sucks. Can’t say I’m not used to it though. I understand. I wish I wasn’t so annoying. On a side note, Hailey gave my number to some cute guy at Starbucks. He’s texting me and everything. It’s funny because I would never ever have the balls to do that. It’s weird. Anyways, I’m just super glad it’s summer. Thank goodness.

So my blog description for the past three years has said “just trying to make it through high school!” It’s so weird because I’m sitting here in school on the last day, and I’m done. Today is the last day. I can’t even fathom it. I guess I’ll have to change my blog description. Anyways, I’m not feeling sentimental towards leaving yet. I don’t know if I ever will. People say it just hasn’t hit me yet, but I’ve never really felt connected to this place so it may never happen. Graduation is coming so fast and I have yet to get a dress. College is coming so fast and I have yet to feel adult enough to move out. I won’t even be 18 by the time I’m moved out. It’s weird to think I will no longer be living with my dad, brother, and mom. I mean I almost feel as if we’re all connected more than most families just because we’ve moved around so much together. It’s like we’re some sort of dysfunctional team. It’ll be so weird to move without them. I can’t even fathom it. I am glad to leave this town behind though and all those people who I’ve been surrounded by who will never get out. Not that it’s bad thing.. just not for me. I have wanderlust like no other. But yeah. It’s all so odd.

Must.. not.. blog.. about.. how.. cute.. Jake.. is.

But ohmygodhessocuteandhekissedmyhandsosweetlylastnightandasdfjkl

Fuck. Sorry about that guys.

If I like a guy, he always likes another girl more. I can have a crush on a guy, and even if he’s interested in me, there’s always a girl who is on his mind more. If I hang out with friends, I am always the one who just tags along. I’ve always gotten grades that are just above average in school. My parents only tolerate me.

I’m never the best friend, I’m never that girl, I’m never the favorite student, favorite child.. anything. I’m just so average. And that’s on the good days. On the bad days I’m the annoying friend, the depressing girl, the clingy love interest that just gets in the way, the bitchy unappreciative daughter. I’m never the prettiest, smartest, funniest. I’m just.. here. That’s it. Nothing more.